A.J.E.M

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Hey. Have a few random thoughts in my mind and yeah, i guess i'm blogging them out.
I used to put at my pms or even, ask ppl " What Is Your Deepest Fear? " in hopes that they could give me an answer. Some of the answers were - "fear of death", "fear of losing loved ones", "fear of failure" etc. I even asked myself what my fears were. Truth is - i really don't know.

This quote "What is Your Deepest Fear" has become famous through the movie Coach Carter. It's actually a poem by Marianne Williamson (yeah ironically, we both have the same name).

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Yeah, i knew about this poem long before i started asking others. But i didn't fully grasp and understood the meaning of it until recently.

Yeah, we are all meant to shine as children are. But at times, it's just really hard to let go of the past. To let go of that pain within. Sometimes, that light just scares us so much that we don't even dare to let go. The feeling's kinda like - When you're at the highest, most powerful and happy point of your life, something hard just strikes you flat down. And, at one go, you'd lose every single thing. Every damn thing except the leftover pain and memories.

But hey. Those are just random silly thoughts i'm having right now. And, i'm in no position to complain or whine cos', ayee. I really am in no position to say anything. TakeCare ppl and enjoy your holidays.

Love, Marianne.

11:05 PM

Hey there lovelies♡;

Alright, this will be a "random" post. But, not. :) Haha!
You see, it's really cool to sit down with your friends to talk about how you guys started to know each other and how you guys grow closer. Seriously, this talks somehow i can say really might bring you guys even closer. :) Like what close friends i have now.
I love them a lot! Seriously! I just don't know why, but whenever i see them, all my sorrows and problems will ''disappear'' for a moment. It's just as if like you put everything inside a small small box for a short while. Even though how sad i am, i will always smile when i see them. I'm not trying to 'boot-lick' here. But I'm truly seriously serious. That's how i feel. I have known Joana, Marianne and Elize for a very very very long time, since i-don't-know-when. & the thing is that, i understand them like a lot! Hahah! The thing is that, though we only grew closer than close we were before, only last year before the ending of the year. We joined wardens as attachment then we continued. It's just like, everything we do, we are together. No matter what, we are always together. No matter what. Without fail. We are like sisters who are seriously close and no one can seperate us at all. & when we don't see each other for a day, we will 'die'. Hahha! I could still remember, before we got REAL close, we just meet up for classes and talked only during the weekends. That's it. Now, we talk to each other like everyday and must meet up. We were really like that in the past. But as for now, it's different. & no matter what, we will be there for each other no matter what. & that's what they did for me. Thanks alot babes! Loveyall to the max. Now, i don't know why, i kept crying in front of them now. Which i don't like, i don't want anyone to worry about me. Like i really don't want them to worry for me. If i see that they are unhappy, i will be doubly unhappy & vice versa. Alright, i shall leave the rest of my 'essay' to another day! I gotta rest early for my CGH appointment tomorrow. See ya babes! <3333.

With tons & loads of ♡;
Inaaaa♡;

Labels: There's nothing more than love..

10:23 PM

Saturday, March 14, 2009

HI PPL! This is the first time i'm actually blogging for our blog. My gosh, i've been such a mean person man. HAHA! I guess i'm really into the blogging mood these few days. Just wanna sincerely thank Georgina, Joana and Elize for being ever so supportive of me esp towards my netball comps etc and of course, planning such a wonderful b'day surprise for me which got me so shocked and hysterical! HAHA!

I just realised i use a lot of 'HAHAs' which is kinda annoying at times. But pardon me ok. I'm not a very good blogger because i always blog essay kind of posts.

Its March 2009 alrdy. How time flies right? Soon, Jo, Elize and i will be taking our O's and Georgie, her N levels. Crucial year for every single one of us. But its also the year (with 2008) that brought us all really close. 9 years of friendship and sisterhood and its still counting.

Yet again, i really wanna thank them all. Georgina once told me that she worries abt me because i don't express my thoughts and feelings out. Even when something happens i choose to keep it to myself etc. That is why, at times when she knws something has happen and wants to knw why, i always choose to keep it to myself. Sorry georige!

It's not that i don't wanna tell you all what happen. I know you all would be thr for me whenever i need help. But i guess, i'm just so used to keeping it to myself. That even when i tell you all about it, it'll just be minor probs. But really, don't worry about me alright. I've grown to learn that at times, probs must be solved by yourself. Don't ever worry about me ok. Rmb this: I'll always be strong and I'll hang on.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH! Loads love(:

Love, Marianne

9:32 PM

Hi, hadn't used Blogger in years (two years at least). Nothing has changed here though -.-" Anyway, surprised Marianne two days ago. Not really our surprise as it was her family that invited us to the surprise birthday party, so we were just the guests there. Hahaha, the surprise we planned for Marianne was last Sunday. But we had fun, eating and eating and talking and watching Jurassic Park (highlight for me as I've never watched Jurassic Park in years)/Don't Forget the Lyrics and eating somemore despite having eaten our dinner at home earlier (ok only I did) but anyhoo, I AM SIMPLY JUST LAZY TO ELABORATE FURTHER SO SINCE WE TOOK PICTURES, BRING IN THE PICTURES. Ok la only one picture because I am lazy to search for more.

Ok Blogger is taking so long to upload the picture sooo, I am gonna type somemore to kill time. The March Holidays are here!! :D It sounds so exciting and relaxing however, there would be school, and there's only school on one of the days! Actually two but I'm planning not to attend one of them because it's just CCA! Anyway, I don't like the holidays because I feel so guilty when I don't study so that means I really have to study. Besides, it's so boring and guess what, it's only the first day of the March Holidays. I cannot find anything better to do at home except to study because during the first term, I studied whenever I got home and I had no life (did not watch television, play online games, etc.) so during the Holidays, I would have no life as well. So I am just lifeless, sad and more sad. But on the brighter side, it's a break for me. HOWEVER, SYF's in a few weeks and my conductor says that our second song needs more practicing because we suck. BUT- I am so lazy to keep going for practices as there isn't any improvement at all. But- it's the seniors that are giving the most problem (graduating students -> poor attendance). We feel that three days of practices (2pm - 6pm) is taking up a lot of time which could be use for studying so we ditch two days of CCA and only appear on one. We feel very bad but what can we do, we're neglecting our studies. Not like we work very hard anyway but still, we need to sleep... a lot, hahahahhaha. Okay... And I think I've typed too much but still, the picture isn't up. ILJWIFUHWEFUIHWEIUHF!

OKAY, and now, it is up! HAHAHAHHAA. Ok happy belated sixteenth birthday Marianne Nicole! :D

- Jo

8:47 PM

Friday, March 13, 2009

Hey there lovelies;

12th March 2009, Thursday.

HAPPY SWEET 16th MARIANNE! :) We went to Marianne's house to give her a surprise. She had the same reaction as she had on sunday. Hahah. And that's like FINALLY, the four of us took pictures luh. Like for sooo long. :) Yesterday was a fun one. :)

Inaaaa;

Labels: This means FATE.

8:38 PM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Hey there lovelies;

Did not blog for a long time. We were all busy enough. && guess what? We really really got close to each other MORE only like last year. Isn't that cool? We will "die" when we don't see each other. Haha, isn't that hilarious? Also, we joined wardens. Therefore, it made us more bonded together. We made new friends, meet new people. Also, GOD has given us new obstacles to overcome. Yeah. :) I guess, we are really fated together. Anyway, i just turned 16 last month. This month's Marianne and next Elize and finally, Jo. :) Don't worry, i will wait till all of your b'day are over than we can watch Movies together. Hahah, NC-16. LOL! Heehee. :P I simply just love you guys yoo. :)

Inaaaa;

Labels: We are always together as one. Sisters for life.

10:16 PM